I have this funky blood sugar issue. I like to think it's only purpose is to prevent me from eating as many fruit roll-ups for breakfast as I want but here recently I have gained a new insight on this problem. (this is going somewhere, promise)
One morning, actually lots of mornings, I like to think that this particular issue doesn't exist. So I'll grab a giant bowl of fruity pebbles (or two) and indulge as if in an hour I won't feel like death and have to call my best friend to come and save my life with a peanut butter sandwich. You see, what happens when I eat extremely sugary things is I go on this temporary high. I feel good for like forty five minutes but, then unlike normal people, my body cannot adjust my blood sugar levels afterwards and I crash-- experiencing dizziness, cold sweats and extreme fatigue.
Here recently, God has been showing me a lot of my sin. It seems as if every time I turn around a new shortcoming in myself is exposed. At first, it feels like a beating-- just like when my blood sugar drops-- I feel overwhelmed, anxious and incapable of moving forward.
My sin is like my bowl of fruity pebbles. (deep, i know) It tastes good. It is colorful and inviting. It makes me feel good (at least for a little bit). Our flesh likes to dress sin up-- make it look like something it is not. That flippin' bowl of fruity pebbles is nothing but a bowl of cavity causing, over processed, sugar death trap. Sin is nothing but a hole creating, over rated, death trap.
Once my blood sugar drops and the fruity pebbles are exploited as the nutritious lie they really are-- that peanut butter sandwich is an absolute necessity. It is filling and long lasting. Contrary, when my sin is exposed or called out-- it shows how incapable i am of being good. It shows me that my flesh is a lie and my sin is death. But what it really does is it shows me how great and merciful the Lord is to my desperate soul. For him to save me, fill me with His spirit and last for an eternity... how great Thou art.
Instead of relying on fruity pebbles (the world, my flesh and sin) to satisfy my hunger, i trust that the peanut butter sandwich is enough.The Lord is the only one who is enough.
Now, i am not saying to keep eating your fruity pebbles because you know the peanut butter sandwich will save you if you get into a mess. It is our duty to repent. I must know that i was wrong. I must learn to not eat fruity pebbles// to steer clear of sugary lies.
However, satan likes to overwhelm us with our sin-- he seeks to make it appear as if we have to conquer it by our own strength, knowledge and wisdom. Rest in the Lord. Rest in His strength.
Ephesians 2 speaks of God's Grace, sovereignty and great love--
It says "But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in trespassed, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved)."
If you don't know Jesus-- I would encourage you to seek His faithful and merciful face-- repent and know He is Lord.
I am so thankful God doesn't leave us where He finds us.
achy knees bent in awe
conviction so deep-- Grace over Law
Change me O Lord and make me brand new
take what you must
just draw me nearer to You
prideful sin fighting for the throne
Your faithful Spirit refusing to leave me alone
A King bleeding to death on a tree--
and I have the audacity to think this life is about me
I can see the love in Your eyes. Holiness became man,
A world filled with short-term commitment
promises life
as if it can give it
Dear Creator, you are firm and true,
promising life because it can only come from You.
